ShareAs many know, I have been taking a soul planning class with Roger Hanson, the one who did the Spirit portrait of Andrew.  It came at the perfect time, the weekend before Andrew’s 5th anniversary of his passing, and the last class was on the 5th anniversary of his FUNeral. It really helped to keep me busy and focused on something else other than my loss. Now of course I did a bit of whining to Andrew, in my infinite way, by wanting him to do something really cool to make his anniversary special. His anniversary of his passing, aka … Continue reading →

ShareThis is the hand that would grab my finger when he was a baby. This is the hand I held when he was a little boy. This is the hand I held when we would go for walks when it was cool outside when he was a teenager. This is the hand I held to my face the moment my beautiful 16yo son passed away. This is the hand that I held to my face as I heard that horrible long beep, followed with the long flat line on the screen. This is the hand my tears fell upon while … Continue reading →

ShareI can not believe tomorrow that it’s been five years since I have hugged and kissed my boy. FIVE YEARS? REALLY? It Doesn’t seem possible. I don’t even know how I have survived this sometimes. Andrew has been keeping me busy this weekend before his anniversary with a Soul Planning class taught by Roger Hanson. Roger is the one who did Andrew’s portrait before we met. The 3rd class will be on Andrew’s FUNeral anniversary. Another great distraction! We also did a mediumship event Saturday night and spoke about turning devastation into celebration at the Cosmic Center Sunday night where … Continue reading →

ShareOk, that is not necessarily true, possibly not false either, especially for those skeptics that may read this and think I’m a total whack job for believing in faeries and such. But I couldn’t come up with a clever title regarding my marble story I am about to share. We have been teaching Faerie 101 Workshops on the East Coast of Florida and in our area. We teach people what to put in their garden to attract the faeries. Faeries are there anyway, but if you want to work with them, there are certain things you can put in your … Continue reading →

ShareWe recently received an email from Andrew’s Occupational Therapist about an amazing last gift that he gave her and and his massage therapist his last day here. If I had of known about it, it would have been put in my book…BUT! It WILL just have to  be in the move instead! ;-) Just sayin. For those that haven’t read my book or followed our journey, Andrew had 2 very special people at All Children’s Hospital in St Pete Fl, that he trusted besides Martin and I. He wouldn’t allow us to leave him with anyone else unless it was … Continue reading →

ShareThe cycle of grief is what I will call, hmmm let’s say, “interesting.” Martin and I were talking about it today. He was going through another cycle of it, as was I, as usual. I think more so now because this was the time of year we were in the hospital with Andrew 5yrs ago. This time 5 yrs ago Andrew was doing fab, and we thought he’d get through the leukemia. Well, I guess he really did, just not in the way we had hoped or imagined he would. We realize this grief is something we will have to … Continue reading →

ShareMartin and I have been booking Faerie 101 workshops on both the East and the West Coast of Florida. We were quite surprised how venues we’re jumping on this workshop as soon as we mentioned it. We were nicely surprised by the interest in it. We teach people about the Elemental Kingdom, the different types, signs from them and how to work and manifest with the ones in your yard. Then we take them out and show them the signs where we are at. We use to go to the Sarasota Renaissance Festival when it was in town. We’ve been … Continue reading →

ShareSomething is going on, that is for sure! This crazy journey called grief certainly takes you on one hell of a wild ride! There have been times I did want to yell, “JANE! (MUCK) Get me off this thing!” Some wild things have been going on lately. I mean more than the usual. I know! Hard to believe for us! Like I have mentioned before, Andrew loves to communicate through numbers as well as songs. Maybe because his father is like Rainman when it comes to numbers always adding them up and telling their meaning. Lately it’s been LOTS of … Continue reading →

ShareTwo days ago I was in Walgreens at the pharmacy counter to ask a question. As I am standing there waiting for someone to come to the counter, which no one ever came to, I hear a song and a voice that is familiar to me. I think, “Is that John Denver I hear? That would be weird to hear John Denver in Walgreens.” Then as usual I get that familiar energy that is my boy surrounding me to let me know to pay attention. When I listen to the song, I just remember listening to it while in hospital … Continue reading →

ShareI was channel surfing last night and just “happened” to come across the show “Dead Like Me” again, AND the same episode that I blogged about on Jan 9th 2008 was on. What a “coincidence,” huh? Yeah, whateva! Only this time maybe it wasn’t just for me. While it was such a great reminder for me, and I’ll need reminders for as long as I am here, I believe I need to blog about this again for others as well. For those that don’t know what “Dead Like Me” is about, it’s about an 18yo girl named George, who is … Continue reading →