I let it slide that Izzy could see Denny (her finance that passed) on Grey’s Anatomy tonight. And the kidnapped baby on Life on Mars was named Andrew. But now Lavern on Scrubs passes and Carla can see her too???? ALL this in the same night? Ok and now Niles on Frasier just mentioned his bone marrow! What the hell?? Is Andrew trying to make me cry? Like I don’t have enough reason to cry dealing with the holidays coming up, AND with no shock to help me get by this year! What’s he playing at? I wanna see him like Izzy saw Denny and Carla saw Lavern dammit! Is that asking too much for an Avatar?? I don’t think so! He hasn’t even been turning the fairy light on!
I am back to having no distractions yet again AND the holidays are coming. So I’m missing shopping & planning the holidays with Andrew. He loved the holidays so much! This was the time of year his terhets would flair up when he was younger. He eventually out grew that. It’s so weird not to have kids at home for Christmas anymore, just like that, no more kids for Christmas. I just don’t know what to do with myself! I miss shopping for Andrew. I miss him kissing the top of my head while he hugged me in the kitchen. I miss him tucking us in at night. That’s right, Andrew tucked Martin and I into bed every night. I miss him barreling out of his room in the morning asking “How’s it going?!” I miss him asking “Who’s the Prettiest Mama?!” or “‘so how’s your day going?” I miss him so very much! He was buddy, my friend, my playmate, my Mucker. It gets lonely here without him.
Ok, I got that one out, now onto the next order of business. We are getting ready to put up a pre-order page soon for the music cd. We are shooting to have the cd ready by early to mid January, and with that a FREE show at the Irish Rover to premier our new show, “A Musical Evening With PureHeart!” We still have to talk to the Irish Rover about it but I don’t see why they wouldn’t let us launch our show there. They have been so supportive of us!
I can’t wait to get this show on the road. I need something to keep me busy. Being away helped me so much to deal with Andrew’s 1st anniversary of his journey home. But now I’m home and right back into the grief boat again. *sigh* I guess I’m still in re-entry after being gone for a month and in 3 different time zones. It was great to be surrounded by a lot of friends and being kept busy. I got to meet up with my comic friends in So-Cal for sushi. That was great! My hairdresser and friend Tamara, came over a few times. In So-Cal I wouldn’t be at a loss for something to do…. Like running from fires, ducking Earth quakes, mud slides or any other natural disasters. :-D But here in FLA it’s one big pity party! :-) *que violins*
IT’S ALL GOOD!