Andrew was calling the shots in the hospital and we knew we were his minions. We knew our place! :-) We were under no delusions. We were honored to be of service to our Prince! But now?? He’s still calling the shots! Wot up wid dat??
My friend and hair stylist, Lori, had to stop by last night to tell me something about Andrew. I wasn’t worried as what can anyone tell me now that could worry me?? Right? The worst has happened already. I say that because my mother makes me laugh. Soon after Andrew ascended I called my mother about something and she says “What’s wrong??” Seriously Mom?? I asked why she answers the phone that way?? What more can happen?? The worst already has! Moms are funny!
Lori has a client, Cindy, who is an intuitive and she usually will give Lori messages when she gets her hair done. Cool huh?? Well she had messages for me this time from Andrew!! That like never happens to me!! He was once again a Chatty Kathy! LOL There was a lot said then Lori had her write it down because she knew she wouldn’t remember it all.
As she was reading it to me I knew indeed it was Andrew. He said he was concerned about me. Well, he should be dammit! I lost my baby! I mean, does he think I’m just going to get over this just like that?? I actually admitted out loud for the first time that I felt he betrayed me! Yup I said it and I meant it! He has been telling me for years that he planned on staying here forever!
Now before you go thinking every kid sez that, remember it’s Andrew, not your run of the mill kid. We would have long talks how he believed he wouldn’t have to ever die. I explained that our soul never dies, just the body.
He corrected me and said “NO! I can keep this body! I’m not leaving it, I don’t have to” I talked up the Other Side and how I planned on going there. He said I had to stay too and he had the knowledge to be able to do it. Again I talked up the Other Side and he said “No Mommy, Earth is where it’s happening not the Other Side and I’m not leaving!”
I learned that I didn’t argue with him when he was adamant about things and he was adamant about staying on Earth. I knew he knew things that were beyond mortal man. SO yes, I feel betrayed that he left so god damn early! I believed him when he said he was going to stay forever….or at least till I left first! He loved life SOOOOO much! I know he wanted to stay but there was a bigger plan in place but I still feel betrayed. I’ll eventually get over it.
He did say some wonderful things and told me that he would be working with me, heart to heart to help others’ heal their hearts through laughter. Should be interesting to watch it unfold. As long as we can still work together I will accept his new position in life.
We already have another radio show booked with Andrew in January AND we’re bringing our radio show back! Andrew wants to do it now. Couldn’t get him to do it when he was here but now he’s all for it. He’s back to the way he was when he was 3 & 4 yrs. old. It’s good to see.
Your Minions await their orders Muck! :-) IT’S ALL GOOD
The betrayal…I understand it. Don’t ask me how, but I just know what you mean when you say that.
Could that be a question you could ask Andrew on the forum? Why did he say he will never leave? That he knew how to stay here, with his body? I’m sure he can explain. I feel curious also, because when I was pregnant with Ujjwal there had been problems and each day I thought I was going to lose him, and each time he replied back to me that he is not coming here to die. He knows how to live without death…body and all. The same things. Even now when something happens (you know he had surgery very early on in life), and I get terrified, I hear this very clearly…that he hasn’t come here to die this time. I had never heard of such a thing before. No one had said such things…we always take death as inevitable, so I just kept quiet about what he has been saying to me. Yet, today I had to speak about it…when you wrote about what Andrew said. I’ll be very curious about what Andrew says for this…why he said what he said (and I am taking what he said seriously, knowing who he is), and why did he go.
Love,
Swati
SO you know what I’m talking about!! WoO HoO Martin seems to think it was his human side kicking in & saying that. Maybe if you ask, because I’m afraid Martin will answer and not Andrew. Let me think how I can ask it.
Andrew loved being here so much! That’s why I was so shocked when he left. He never complained about treatment, he just wanted to get it done so he could move on with his life! We had plans for when he got out. I want him back so bad!
Connie – what you are describing is very normal. In fact, I’d be worried about you if you DIDN’T feel that way! It’s one thing to know something with your head, and quite another to know something with your heart. I’m so glad you feel you can express this to us, because the more you can talk about it, the easier it will be to move through it. And even though you have a very precious gift in that Andrew is still able to communicate with you and you are still able to hear him, there is no doubt that there will be a period of adjustment, and even though you are enlightened, you are still human, you are still a Mama!!! I hope you always know that you can tell us how you are feeling and that we will always be supportive, no matter what! (and if anyone on this Blog is ever NOT supportive, Swati and I will take care of ’em for ya, right Swati? :):):) )
I read this and want to give you a big ol’ hug. I hope Andrew will explain what he meant. I wish you had him back, too.
Connie…somehow I don’t feel it was his human side kicking in and saying what he said. Maybe I’m wrong. But this is how I feel. This whole thought of, “No death” is something that doesn’t occur to people. It is too strange a thing to say or think. And later (after I heard it from Ujjwal), I read on the ATP board a few people…a handful of course…admitting that they are having these strange thoughts that there is going to come a time on earth when there will be no death. I guess the means of moving on or transformation will be different?
But I too have this feeling now…about this change. I don’t know if it will happen in our lifetime, but it feels like thats what will happen at some point of time. Oh…and there was this website too that Jules from the ATP board had written about. They have channeled messages…and this was one of the messages. Maybe that is what Andrew talked about? And somehow I totally believe he could have done that…but maybe they changed plans? What do you feel Connie? Do you feel that same message too in your heart? About the means of transformation changing from death as we know of it now?
Leah, absolutely! We’ll take care of anyone who is not supportive to Connie on the blogs! LOL!! Connie…always feel free to write just what is in your heart. It’ll be terrible if you cannot be yourself even with us…your dedicated bunch of stalkers :). You are a mum…and no matter what, whether it is what the ego wants or not…it is so comforting to have who you love with you physically. Its like Andrew said to me…its like more icing to the cake. And for us on the physical side, the “physical” is important. Of course with all this, I must say I am truly grateful that Martin is such a superb medium…
Hi Connie,
Just want to send you love!! I don’t totally understand as it hasn’t been in my life. I do feel like I have an idea and it makes perfect sense to feel this way. Part of your healing. My grandmother the other day told my grandpa she was very angry for him leaving her, 11 years ago. I am proud of you to see you are sorting things out and being honest with your feelings. Doreen Virtue said in in of her books that children are coming in with very long life cycles 200+ years. I am curious what Andrew and Swati’s little one are talking about. I do feel that there are going to be major changes coming ahead. I have read and hear rumors about it. Won’t it be nice when there is truly heaven on earth for all!! Keep on blogging mama. I go there first thing. I’m here if you need anything.
Love and Light,
Christine Salter
Just wanted to send you a hug and say thank you for being honest about your feelings. It’s totally understandable that you feel this way. We are here for you.
Lots of love,
Anna
Thank you everyone for your beautiful love and support!!
Swati – you know you can’t reference a website without giving the URL!!!