Is that you really find out who people are and who your friends are when going through a major crisis or achieving success. I have found the incredible generosity of people I barely knew and the disappoint of people I thought I knew. I owe so many people a HUGE thank you and I hope to get that done within the year.
What I have found is how grateful I am and I want to thank all of you here that have ALWAYS been here to lend your support and love. I know it hasn’t always been easy to read the pain I have been going through in losing my son’s physical being. I appreicate you all so much!! Especially since some of the people that were close to me have not been there. These people knew they could reach out to me and be there no matter how far away they are. All they had to do was make the effort to come here to this blog because I pretty much live here.
What I have found is that a lot of people lost interest in us when Andrew crossed. They quit coming here and just lost interest. Oh well, celesta vive!
What I have found is that while I can tie up and gag the mama gene, she always seems to find her way out of it anyway! DAMMIT!
What I have found is that when people are sitting in their shit and you are not, they will try and hand you their shit and call it yours. That has happened on several occasions in the past year with friends….ex friends now.
What I have found is that a major crisis is an opportunity to clear out things and people in your life that don’t really need to be there anymore anyway.
What I have found is that some people would have been able to handle this if I was in constant crisis, or was depressed all of time and crying. Because I have been fairly strong through all this, some people can’t handle it so they stay away & go and find people that are either in crisis or find someone who will buy into theirs.
What I have found is when I realized that recently, I thought of all of you here that have been so diligent in sending your love and offering me words of kindness, encouragement and support on a regular basis, I was overwhelmed with such love and gratitude when I thought of you! My prayer is that I can do that for you. A lot of you I have never met! I don’t know if some of you even know that Swati and I have NEVER met! I have never met Dana! Leah, I met after Andrew was diagnosed. Karen T it’s only been a year. All of the major ‘playas’ on this blog I haven’t known a long time or have never met. Joanie, Leo and Leila I have met through ATP(r) and I am blown away by your support! And Jeremy & Denise who have always been there through all of this in person AND still come here to lend support, thank you! Thank you to all of you who have posted at one time or another! You have helped me to stay strong!!! Thank you for loving me for who I Am. Thank you for literally being a life line for me!
What I have found is that I found out what my family is made of! My husband and daughter mean more to me than they could ever know!!! That this journey could have easily torn us apart, but has only brought us closer together. That I did in fact create the family I always wanted & Andrew is still a major part of it! Just not the way I ever imagined he’d be!
What I have found is that by getting rid of the things that no longer serve me, I have made room for more good to come into my life!
IT’S ALL GOOD!