That I may actually be finally starting to accept where Andrew is? Or am I speaking too soon? Time will tell.
I know Andrew does so much work on me. I was feeling him a lot again this past week like when he first left, working on my crown & third eye chakra. He’s never stopped working on me but I was really noticing it a lot this past week.
Maybe it’s been the double Valium treatment Dr. D gave me last week and is going to give me again on Tuesday. No, it doesn’t make me all goofy. Just calm. Or maybe it’s the full dose of my herbs. Or maybe it’s been me focusing on where Andrew is when I go to sleep and when I start to awake. Or maybe it’s the way Martin talks about his conversations with Andrew all of the time that it seems like he hasn’t gone anywhere. Or maybe it’s the beautiful songs Andrew is giving Martin. Or maybe it’s because I know I will get to see Andrew again and remember ALL the past lives we’ve had together. Or maybe it’s that I’m just getting use to his new (for lack of a better word) position. Or maybe it’s the Mama Gene is finally tired and is ready to accept things for the way they are.
Maybe it’s been all of these things. Alls I know is that I’ve been FEELING more at peace with where Andrew is. I know he can hear me, and soon I will be hearing him more. I feel him with me. He’s not gone, just on a higher vibration. All I have to do is leave this grief behind then I can go to this vibration too & be with Andrew more.
I know I had to travel this road of grief to get to the other side of it. I know at least I’m closer to the other side of it if nothing else. There is no way around it. There is no short cuts. It sucks. I am just grateful that I didn’t have to go through this with my heart aching. That shows just how powerful Andrew is. And now other’s are feeling just how powerful he is in the classes he teaches with Martin. Even Denise is blown away by Andrew’s power in the class and she knows him and is around us a lot.
I will ALWAYS miss Andrew’s physical presence. His physical being was so beautiful & powerful. But I know he wouldn’t have left us unless he had too. I close my eyes and I can see him and he looks even more magnificent! He is so stunning! So that’s what I have been focusing on.
IT’S ALL GOOD!