Martin has been telling me for the past 7 months that if I want to connect with Andrew on the same level he does I have to heal the grief. I’ve gotten pretty good messages from Andrew and feel him touching me even as I have been moving through the grief. But I knew there was so much more to experience than what I have been by getting through the grief.
Remember in my Ribet Ribet story about my whining of never having a visitation from Andrew? The only dreams I was having was of him in the hospital? We were always dealing with the leukemia? Martin said that was because that’s where my thoughts keep going, back to the hospital. Well, that has taken a turn! Now when I see him, I see him where he is now. I put myself there and not in the hospital anymore when I want to spend time with him. That really works!!
When you heal grief, you make so much room for a hell of a lot more good to come in! I had the best dream last night. I was so excited it woke me up! But it was at the end of our visit and I just basked in the wonderful energy of it. It left me feeling like I spent time with Andrew last night….and I did! It was amazing! That was the feeling I was talking about that I wanted to feel in Acceptance post.
I had this dream that we were at some small convention or something similar. It was all women and even Andrew’s girlfriend was there. I knew Andrew was on the Other Side but I could see him clear as day and we were chatting away having a good time. I then notice someone asking another woman who was I talking to because they couldn’t see anybody near me! But I could see who was near me! :-) Andrew and I laughed about it.
I was giving Andrew’s girlfriend messages from Andrew. I was giving others messages as well from Andrew but not saying where I was getting them from. We kept that our little secret. Mostly we just hung around together talking like we use to.
My next goal is to have him take me on a journey around the castle! Show me the grounds and all the cool stuff we have there.
The important thing about this dream is that I FELT it! I felt like we had spent time together! That’s what happens when you trade pain for peace!!
IT’S ALL GOOD!