WORDS TO SONGS

First, I believe I forgot to admit that I had a mom moment in his room last night. The devastation hit me as I went into his room. I sat in his chair and sobbed, I had what Oprah calls “the ugly cry.” The realness hit me. It still doesn’t feel real to me. I know it is but I don’t feel it. SO when I feel it, I cry.

After I was done, didn’t want to give myself a headache or anything, :-) I went into my room and my ceiling fan light was on! We NEVER use that! Martin didn’t turn it on. Hmmmmm wonder who it was?? I did ask for a sign. :-)

Music is a big part of our lives. Martin came out a little while ago and said Andrew wanted to dance with us. He chose the Creed song “Arms Wide Open” Not sure if that is the real title. As we danced the tears steamed down my face. I remembered the lead singer wrote this for the birth of his son & we were dancing to it for the ascension of our son.

The words to the first song below is the one we danced to at Andrew’s service. It was the song that I could not figure what the words meant till driving home from the airport w/Chrissy and AnneMarie. This song, to me describes who he was here on this planet. So miss understood and labeled as a kid w/ADD or ADHD. Schools trying to medicate him. Not listening to him. We listened to him! This planet wasn’t ready to hear him! The song is sung by Johnny Reznik, hubba hubba for the movie Treasure Planet I believe.
“I’m Still Here”

I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard.
All a moment that’s held in your arms.
And what do you think you’d ever say?
I won’t listen anyway…
You don’t know me,
And I’ll never be what you want me to be.

And what do you think you’d understand?
I’m a boy, no, I’m a man..
You can take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what’s never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don’t know me ’cause I’m not here.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don’t feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
The don’t know me,
‘Cause I’m not here.

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I’m not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can’t break me
As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don’t feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
They can’t see me,
But I’m still here.

They can’t tell me who to be,
‘Cause I’m not what they see.
And the world is still sleepin’,
While I keep on dreamin’ for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I’ll never believe.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don’t feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can they say I never change
They’re the ones that stay the same.
I’m the one now,
‘Cause I’m still here.

I’m the one,
‘Cause I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
I’m still here.
This is directly from Andrew through my friend in England, Anna. She got it from Andrew while in the shower! :-0 So my son turned into a perv on the Other Side! Don’t be judging!! LOL On the contrary, apparently we Light Workers are forever getting messages from DLO’s in the shower and yes, even on the toidie as well. Not sure why that is, we are discussing different reasons on the Angel Board. We are weird bunch us psychics!! I’m just so glad she listened and wrote it down! Thank You Anna!

LIFE IS A GAME!

I will walk with you forever
I will hold your hand with every step you make
Remember all the love we shared together
No one can take that away

Didn’t I tell you
That life is a game
I never wanna stop playing
And I know it may never feel the same to you
But I’m here
And I’m still playing
Cos life goes on
And I am never gone

Remember all the laughs we shared together
And all the silly things we used to do
And hey, I’m now with my friend John Denver
And we’re singing this song just for you

Didn’t I tell you
That life is a game
I never wanna stop playing
And I know it may never feel the same to you
But I’m here
And I’m still playing
Cos life goes on
And I am never gone

Thank you for all the love you gave me
I am the luckiest I could be
To get to share this life with you
So roll the dice and play on
Cos I am never gone

Didn’t I tell you
That life is a game
I never wanna stop playing
So I’m still playing here