For your child? C’mon you know you have one! A friend asked me that when Elatia was young, if I had a song for her when she was a baby. And indeed I did! For her it was David Bowie’s China Doll…or is it girl and I changed it to doll. Doesn’t matter. Elatia looked like a little China doll when she was born. Dunno how, since neither her father nor I have any Chinese in the family! But that’s not here nor there, My song for her was China Doll by Bowie.
On the way to meet Elatia I turned on the radio so Andrew could send me a song. On the way there I kept changing stations because I couldn’t find any songs I liked. Of course I was missing Andrew, I really wanted a song. I got nothing on the way there. I enjoyed my pedi with Elatia. She let Coh, her nail tech who also does my pedis do my pedicure. We usually fight over Coh when we go together for pedis. :-) But this tme she let me have Coh. She’s a good child! She brings no bother to the door….anymore. :-D
Coh is a muggle but very interested in all this “woo woo” stuff. I fascinate her. She let me talk about Andrew and she had questions. When we went to leave she gave me a big hug and said she was sorry for me yet happy for me. I knew what she meant. I thought it was very sweet of her. She got it. Sorry about the physical loss but happy that he is still so close.
We leave the salon to go get gas, then meet at my house to go to lunch. No song yet to the gas station. There was one song I was thinking might come on that he and I use to sing together. Now I’m thinking of another we use to sing together that I forgot about! We use to sing Shania Twain’s song “I Feel Like A Woman!” Seriuosly! We use to sing that one! ROFLMAO We had so much fun singing it together! I promised I wouldn’t tell CJ and Cory! Ooops my bad! Wait! He’s the one who just showed me that one! I just now remembered it thanks to Andrew! Still LMAO! Sorry Muck! You’re secrets out! You felt like a woman! Can’t stop ROFLMAO!!
*catches breath* Anyways, on the way home I’m still waiting for a song. Then I remembered what Martin has been telling me. When I miss Andrew, just visualize him there. SO I did! I could see him sitting next to me in the car like he always was and I put my hand out for him to hold it. The second I did that the most perfect song came on! I just started crying! Still holding his hand of course! What was the song?? Aerosmith’s “You’re My Angel” The song I had for him when he was a baby!
How perfect was that??? I totally forgot about that one. It was so perfect! He let me know that it truly was him and he was indeed sitting beside me! Martin was right! This visualizing really does work! I was expecting the song “I love you always forever” Dunno if that’s the title, dunno who sings it, some female singer. But I would sing that to him when it came on the radio when we were in the car.
Andrew wanted to prove to me that Martin was right! When I focus on who he is now I will be closer to him and the more I do it, the stronger the connection will get! If I stay in missing him and in grief, the further away it will take me from him! Hmmmm which one will I do??? The more I do focus on him now, I will eventually be having dialogs with him like Martin does & seeing him more! I choose B. focus on who he is now more!
Just another example of Andrew showing me to focus on what I want and NOT on what I don’t want. He’s a good teacher!
IT’S ALL GOOD! :-D :-D :-D :-D