Martin and I went to dinner Saturday night at our friend Carole’s house, she was a tremendous help to us with Andrew’s service. Tommy and Junie were there as well, they were a tremendous help when our dog, Wolfie, had to be put down while we were in the hospital.
We were discussing the many blessings and lives that have been touched by Andrew’s journey. All of them agreed that his crossing has brought us so close together and that it maybe wouldn’t have happened other wise. I did say to Tommy, “No offense, but I’d rather have my son here instead.” No offense was taken. :-)
SO Martin and I went out grocery shopping today and when I parked the car, the song he sent Jourdan was playing, Bleeding Love. As we were talking and shopping, I said to Martin, “I think we would have become good friends with Carole, Junie and Tommy even if Andrew didn’t cross.” I went on to say “Even if he hadn’t of been diagnosed…” but then I was interrupted by Martin pointing out the song that just came on, it was the song by Cold Play we have for Andrew, as Martin was also telling me NOT to go there. SO they were kinda ganging up on me! :-0
There was nonsense, easy to ignore, music playing the whole time we were in the grocery store up to that point. Then Andrew sez to Martin “It’s ok I got your back Daddy,” meaning, helping me not to go to “those” places, while Andrew’s also telling me… telling me… well basically and lovingly telling me to “Shut it Pretty Mama!” with that big grin of his. While I didn’t feel it, I knew he was standing tall, hugging me while grinning. He would always do that when he knew he was stepping over the line. It was always in good fun before and now.
Of course when we got in the car the Jason Mraz song “I’m Yours” was on. Just further validation that Andrew was shopping with us. What ever Muck! It’s not the same! Ok, Ok, it is better than nothing. *still doing W symbol w/hands!*
Bottom line, our journey with Andrew through leukemia and beyond has inspired and blessed many, many people around the world. Deep down I know the impact his journey will continue to have through Martin and I sharing Andrew’s love, songs, and messages of wisdom is so HUGE! As much as I hate to admit this, it’s even bigger than if he had stayed. That’s how powerful our mission with Andrew is, he had to leave to finish it through us, his parents, the attention whores! :-D He was not one to stand in front of others and teach. Now?? He’s just one big Chatty Kathy! LOL Honestly, when I think of the magnitude of all this, I am honored and humbled by it. But ya know, the Mama Gene is still W!!!
IT’S ALL GOOD!