1. Swati says:

    Hey you! Yes, you Connie! LOL! Why are you so quiet? You ok?

  2. Swati says:

    Sending bloodhounds in search of Connie….

  3. Swati says:

    Connie…can you please come say that you’re ok, or sad, or busy, or something? People get worried when you are too quiet you know? Sending you hugs…

  4. admin says:

    Ok Swatikins, I figured since there wasn’t a lot of activity on here lately anyway, it didn’t matter if I was on as much. I am an attention whore, I know it, I acknowledge it, I ain’t proud of it, but I am. :-) So when there isn’t a lot of interest here I figure why bother? Maybe I should only write a few times a week. I work hard on trying to have something almost every night to write here. When I see no responses sometimes in the morning I wonder why am I working so hard on this. Maybe I should take a break too every now and then.
    I am overwhelmed with my life as it is and now I am overwhelmed by others’ as well. I just want a break from grief, trauma and other peoples’ drama! God only knows I have freakin earned it! I have had enough!! I want some serious fun now! You know it really doesn’t pay to be strong, it really doesn’t, because when you are, you just keep getting shit on! It’s like, “Here! Take this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this etc.” See? it gets old doesn’t it??

    I understand what Randy Paush from the Last Lecture meant about sometimes feeling beat up by the universe, being brought to your knees, AND still getting beat up! It’s ridiculous!

    If I am not tired tonight I may write something. I have to see how I feel. Thanks for writing (((((Swati.)))))

  5. Leah Clark says:

    Connie – I’ve been looking for you as well, and when Swati did her shoutout, I should have added mine to it. Been involved with my own stuff this past week and while I’ve been reading the blog, I haven’t been participating. As one AW to another, I should have remembered how important that is. And I’m sure that we would understand if you only wrote a few times a week. You’ll just have to tell us that’s what you’re doing, so we don’t send the bloodhounds out every time. :D Must be your turn in the barrel right now, but they will have to dump someone else in at some point. :P Love you!!!!

  6. admin says:

    Now Leah, if I told you that is what I was doing, then no drama would in sue of people wondering if I was ok and I wouldn’t feel the love. :-)

    If you read the latest blog I am stepping up my AW-ness with video. I am like a crack ho looking for her crack! Blogging ain’t gitting me the attention I so crave anymore. I gotta step it up now! I have got to get the F*** outta this barrel! This is total BS!

  7. Swati says:

    Phew! I am so happy you wrote something! You don’t have to work so hard on writing something each night…I know you have a LOT to deal with right now. But if I know that thats what you will be doing, I won’t sit here imagining the worst. I worry about the mommy heart you know? Even if you don’t write something every night, at least do your astral projection practice each day without fail (if you are not already doing that), and write something about your experiences in a new thread in the forum? Just keep imagining how it’ll be when you do it. Read Leah’s experience. That should keep you motivated…and I know that a LOT will change for you after you meet Andrew face to face.

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