Meaning I am starting to FEEL Andrew and accept where he is now. I walked into his room the other night and looked at all of his things and didn’t feel devastated or like he was gone. Just like he was where he was suppose to be and instead of him coming home to us, we’ll be going home to him one day soon enough. Not soon enough for me mind you, but soon enough.
There was almost a peace about it. I think I am finally starting to make peace with his ascension. At least that is how I am feeling at the mo. I am hoping it sticks! No guarantee tho! I am taking my herbs for mood elevation regularly now, that is helping fo sho. I had a acupressure treatment with Denise which I think finally kicked in too. Not to mention all the energy work Andrew has been doing on me morning and night from day 1.
He is around us so much, & I’m feeling that, like he’s not really gone, just on a higher vibration that we can access anytime when we want. Denise can confirm this too. She is seeing him a lot more lately. I only see him with my 3rd eye but I just KNOW he’s there and can see what he is doing when he’s hanging with me. Like during American Idol.
Martin saw Andrew lying in his bed Sunday morning from the corner of his eye. Andrew was waving that goofy wave of his and said “Tell Mommy good morning Pretty Mama.”
I know I will always terribly miss his hugs, his kisses, his voice, his very presence, but I think it is getting easier to accept things the way they are now. Goddess only knows I have been working so hard on healing the grief straight on.
Andrew told Martin that by this happening it will only bring me closer to him and the bigger picture in all of this will soon become clearer to us.
Andrew was at it again today. Martin was in his bathroom and kidding around he says to him “Ok hotshot, let’s see you turn the fairy light on now!” And guess what??? HE DID! Andrew turned the fairly light on right in front of Martin! He’s a good Avatar! He brings no bother to the castle door!
I think I am starting to see the other side of the storm called grief. I am working very hard on staying focused on who Andrew is now. I pray that I can keep moving forward. I’m still taking it one moment at a time and this moment I am actually feeling peaceful. Actually it’s been a few days now and I’m still feeling it! YAY ME!
ITS ALL GOOD!