Martin is doing everything he can to rebuild our lives with Andrew in his new position. Hence the trip to Minnesota. I don’t get to talk to him much because he’s busy with building websites with his new job and putting together the teachings of Andrew.
So I miss our times when we talk about Andrew and what he’s been up to. I sleep more in the day out of boredom and he goes to sleep earlier than me so lately I’ve been able to get the computer. We haven’t had a chance to talk like we normally do, that’s what helps me stay in a better frame of mind. Again, I’m just not feeling right due to allergies. If the meds would just do what they say they would do then maybe things would be better! Tonight I am really having a hard time breathing. I didn’t leave the house at all today, maybe that’s why. Spent most of the day in bed. It’s was like -12 TODAY! Not good walking weather!
But Martin did tell me later on today that Andrew was lying beside me watching the movie with me. He saw energy behind me. That made me feel good. I did feel a buzzing on my head today. But tonight Andrew did something a little different. I was sitting in the chair watching a movie and I smelled cologne. I knew it wasn’t Martin. Even with my nose being mostly plugged I could smell this cologne.
I mentioned it to Martin and he said he didn’t smell it, that it must be Andrew doing it for me. I went to the stairs to see if maybe someone had taken a shower down stairs. I didn’t smell it there. Only by my chair! So that was nice!
Most of the time I can stay focused on who and where he is now because Martin and I are always talking about him and what’s going on with him. But when I have this much time alone, don’t feel well, and can’t go anywhere, don’t have access to a whole lot like a computer or cable tv it becomes a lot harder! It hits me like a ton of bricks that Andrew isn’t here physically. It becomes a border line panic attack.
But hopefully it will all be worth it by the time we leave. The “Pure Heart Method” should be done and ready to teach!
So stay tuned for that! Time to watch the X-Files now while I can.
IT’S ALL GOOD!