We stay so strong through all this. Well, it boils down to walking our talk is all. If we were to fall apart and drown ourselves in addictions or whatever dysfunction of choice then all the stuff we believe in and have taught is all BS!
Do we grieve? Hell yes! Our moments now are not as intense or as often, like every other minute but they are there. We will forever miss having Andrew with us physically. There is no substitute for that as much as Andrew would like there to be. Martin is having an easier time as he is always talking with Andrew. I’m still working on get a clearer connection and the only way to do that is to not wallow in grief.
SO as you can see my my tolerance is quite low for people NOT walking their talk! If Martin and I can walk our talk through the worst tragedy a parent can go through, I will NOT tolerate those who do not! Especially so called “healer teachers!” There is absolutely no excuse for that! Talking about ZERO TOLERANCE?? I have none, nada, zero! I think it is totally shameful! Your out there teaching people heal themselves when your own life is a toxic dump and your kids are suffering?? NO EXCUSE! I’ve seen to many so called Light Workers sitting in their shit yet try to tell others how to heal theirs?? C’mon!
It’s one thing to be on the healing journey while teaching others. That’s not what I’m talking about. It’s about complaining about others not doing the work while you sit in a pile of shit yourself! Not even on the pile, IN the pile! As I like to say “Is the view from inside your colon that good??!”
Martin and I are just doing the only thing we know how to do, love each other and put into practice what we teach and believe.
If I had to go through this all by myself?? Well then I would not have faired so well. I would not be typing here that is for sure. I would be done with this lousy ass planet and it’s inhabitants. I mean there is only so much one person can take! And I have had my fill! OOops Mom grief again! My bad! ;-p Andrew doesn’t like that! Oh yea?? Well he doesn’t get a say since he got to leave! He IS grounded when I get over there! LOL
I also have to say NO ONE gets anywhere of value by themselves! Having the love and support Martin and I have had over these past 4 months has been a tremendous help! We could not have done it alone! We want to thank each one of you for that!! Y0u have held the space for us when we were not able. We are so grateful! We must’ve done something right!
IT’S ALL GOOD!