ONE YEAR AGO TODAY…

Andrew was diagnosed with leukemia. One year ago today my world was turned upside down forever! One year ago today I felt like my heart was ripped right out of my chest! Thank goodness I’ve already written all that out and we don’t have to go over it again. *phew* Dodged a bullet there! :-)

Like I said before, I think I said it here before anyway, (I’ve been on the ATP(r) lately too) that Andrew’s Higher Self knew what he was doing being diagnosed on Elatia’s birthday. It was no accident it happened on that day. Andrew knew we could celebrate every first anniversary since he left, but this one? There is just no way to celebrate or ceremonialize (yes, I just made that word up) the day Andrew was diagnosed with a terminal illness. BUT we can transmute it by celebrating Elatia’s birthday! Nice one Muck!

Twenty seven years ago today was one of the happiest days of my life! I got to finally meet the daughter I knew I was going to have since I was 15 years old, when I came up with her name Elatia. From the word Elation. I came up with that name because I had bought 2 wee stuffed dogs. I was sending Martin one of the wee stuffed dogs in Ireland, he was back there at the time. I named it “Linden” after a tree with heart shaped leaves. Martin and I sat under a special tree everyday during lunch in 9th grade. My sister was helping me find a name for my wee dog in the dictionary. She found the word Elation which of course means; great happiness and joy. I changed it to Elatia. I told Martin that our wee dogs would meet when we saw each other again. My wee dog’s name was Elatia after the word Elation because there would be so much happiness and joy when we finally saw each other again. I still have my wee dog. We have no idea where Linden went to. And finally after 14 years, there was great happiness and joy in Feb 1988, when I flew to N. Ireland to see Martin again and dragged his ass back here. But not before I had to chew through the umbilical cord he still had to his mother or she still had to him. It’s true what they say about Irish mother’s. That’s all I’m saying.

See? Elatia always belonged to Martin and I. She has always been close to Martin. He has always understood her.

She and I will start her birthday out by getting pedicures together. Then I’m taking her shopping for some jeans since she lost over 30 lbs and her old jeans no longer fit. She looks even more amazing! Yea, I hate her! I’ve only dropped like 14 lbs. Yes, I am happy to have at least 14 lbs off, believe me! But it’s just a reminder of how old I am, as I remember being able to drop weight that fast & now I don’t. Then we will go to our fav place we go to for our birthdays, for tiramazu martinis, and have a toast in Andrew’s honor. The last time we went there, Andrew was with us. Jeremy was with us as well because he wanted to have a taste of this tiramazu martini. Yup! I got him hooked too. Martin wasn’t there, he was napping. He likes his naps.

Andrew had me go and get her a present from him yesterday and I found the absolute perfect card from him as well. It has the same flower on it as she has on her website. Just Elatia portfolio OR Just Elatia She took the picture last year when we were all in Laguna together. Coinkeedink? I think not! The words in the card brought tears to my eyes, I could feel his love for her. She will get the card and pressie when we go for the martinis, hopefully our fav bartender will be working. I use to carry his schedule in my purse. Not that I have an alcohol problem or anything ;-) but he’s the only one who can make the tiramazu martini right, so we only go when he is working. If he’s not there today then I’ll have to have a chocolate or Oreo martini is all. :-D

IT’S ALL GOOD!