I do have something to write about. I went on Andrew’s myspace to leave him a comment. Found out that Elatia did the same thing today too. I guess grieving minds think alike. He had some mail. One was from a 17yr old kid saying he hasn’t talked to him in awhile and wanted to know when Andrew was going to be on rune scape again. To please contact him.
So I contacted him to tell him that Andrew had passed away. As I was doing this I was crying, ok more like sobbing. I will never get over this. I just don’t know what to do with myself. I gotta quit crying! Between the freezing dry air and my tears, I’m going to look like a prune by the time I get home! There won’t be any amount of humidity to smooth outÂ my dried up face if I don’t knock it off soon!! But as KC reminde me, its better to just get it out as it comes instead of doing it like slowly letting the air out of a balloon a squeak at a time.
I had gone through Andrew’s mail before he ascended and he never told anyone of his myspace only friends that he was talking to, that he was in the hospital. When they’d ask how he was doing he’d ALWAYS say AWESOME! He just amazes me! I don’t know how he did it because I am unable to do it now. I want to, but I just can’t. I’m too devastated. I’ve been having too many mom moments lately.
We went to the once a month Sunday brunch we go to at my friend Ole’s house this past Sunday. We met in comedy class & have been friends ever since. He lost his son 5 yrs ago, his son was like 27 I think. Ole did something very cool Sunday, he asked Martin how Andrew was! I really appreciated that! It made me feel like there is no separation. For me, I want to keep talking about Andrew. I want to talk about what he’s been up to. He is still a part of our family. Not the way I want, but he still is!!! Who knows, maybe by us doing this, people might realize there is no separation between here and “there.” Then maybe our vibrations will rise even more as we understand this & we’ll be ready for 2012. I dunno, I think I’m just rambling now, antihistamine high or something.
As it sez on my new mug that KC bought for Martin and I…..
IT’S ALL GOOD!