Everyone was talking about an alien space craft suppose to be able to be seen by the naked eye in the Southern Hemisphere yesterday. I just realized I said that so nonchalantly. Like I’m use to seeing space ships in the sky all the time. Actually I am not, but I do know those who it is a common thing. For those who did not know about this lil encounter of the close kind, and now think I have lost the bap, nuts, or that I am out of mind now, I had received an e-mail on it before it was mentioned here on the forum or anywhere else where I had seen it.
BUT for me Oct 14th was the last day Andrew was feeling well last year. It was the end of our run of him feeling great, eating great, just everything being great! It was my last day of thinking we were in the home stretch, and outta the woods. It was our last day of making Andrew his steakie goodness. It was our last time cooking for him. It was the beginning of the end for me as we are on the count down to the worse day of my life!
Andrew has arranged for me to be busy for the time right before and after his 1st anniversary of his journey home. It still does not seem real to me. I still can’t wrap my head around what has happened to us. I still feel like Andrew is coming home sometimes. That he’s only away temporarily and will be back. But none of that is true. He is NOT coming back, I will NEVER get to hug or kiss him again here. But if I think about that, I couldn’t bear to stay here.
So yea, Oct 14th had a totally different meaning for me.
That is why I am focusing on Int’l IT’S ALL GOOD DAY! It’s helping me not to go into deep despair. I struggled around Andrew’s diagnosis day even tho it was Elatia’s b-day. It helped but I still struggled. This day?? Well, I need extra help and Andrew has sent it by keeping me very busy. Busier than I have been all year. Will I still have my moments of grief? ABSOLUTELY! But they won’t be as devastating because I will be with friends and doing what I love for a few weeks.
IT’S ALL GOOD!
PS we leave Friday for Sedona which kicks off our mini magickal metaphysical comedy tour. Please hold the space that we have sold out shows in Sedona on Oct 18th and Palm Springs on Oct 23rd. Kona is a private gig and I know there will be 350 people there for that one who already love us. ;-) In Sedona I am RENTING a 250 seat venue so I am taking a risk with that show. Keeping my fingers and eyes crossed that we sell it out! It would take a lot of pressure off of us by selling out our shows.