Martin, Andrew and I were on the patio tonight talking. Martin felt tingling in his hands and body, he knew Andrew was using him to talk. Andrew was entering Martin’s body.

Andrew said he had argued with his Guides about staying. He fought hard with them about not leaving. I blogged about him talking in his sleep while napping that Friday before he crossed over. He was laying on his back and was mumbling and moving his hands and pointing. I knew he was having a conversation with someone. I told him when he woke up what he had been doing and he said “I was talking with my Guides, I don’t remember what we were talking about but I remember I was telling them what was acceptable and what was not.”

Andrew told us today that he allowed his Guides to stay longer when they were on Earth. I know! Who knew that was possible? He was his Guides’ Guides at some point. That’s like me finding out a few years ago I am actually ahead of my counsel. I am the Warrior which is why I am the one here now.

Andrew was fighting his contract long and hard to stay here but his Guides wouldn’t budge. Andrew pointed out how he allowed them to change their contract when they were here. His Guides weren’t having it. His contract could not be changed, there is a bigger plan in place. Andrew isn’t any ordinary Soul and the bigger plan can not be changed. Do we know exactly what that entails? No, but we trust that Andrew’s illness was for a bigger purpose beyond our comprehension. We know someone like him did not leave for no good reason, that it had to be for a much bigger purpose, not just a Soul wanting to experience what he did. He was too evolved for that, been there done that before. As cliche as it sounds, he can do more from the Other Side than he could from here. He has to get things in place for us and he could only do that from where he is now. When I mentioned that I understand that there is a bigger purpose in all of this, Andrew said “You have no idea Pretty Mama! You have no idea! It is bigger than you could ever imagine!” Good to know. :-D

Then Andrew went into “Muck mode” and showed Martin how much he loved me. He showed Martin his room “there” filled with pictures of me all over it. He did have pictures of me up on his desk last year before we painted his room. Andrew then showed Martin his pillow and blanket with my face on it like Ellen DeGeneres does. Yea, he was going into over kill but I loved it! He wanted to make sure I really understood how much he loves his Pretty Mama! He wasn’t done either.

I went to see Elatia at work tonight and on the way home I was switching channels. The gorgeous full moon was ahead of me. I put on a station that I normally don’t listen to because I got the “hit” to do so. It was the beginning of a Frankie Valli song I use to listen to back in the 70’s. As I heard the words, the tears started flowing. It was the song “Who Loves You” and in it, it says “Who loves you Pretty Mama, who’s always there to make it right?” Well, you can imagine the state of me at this point. Then to follow it up to make sure I knew it was from him, was a song that reminded me of Martin when I was a teenager! For the life of me I can’t remember the title now. DAMMIT! But I know Andrew was affirming his message to me and that is all that matters.

Friday we went to Elatia’s friend’s wedding, well the bride and groom are friends of ours too but they are closer to Elatia’s age. Of course I had a moment at the wedding. When do you think that was? Umm maybe the mother/son dance? Yup! You would be right. I couldn’t watch Brett and his mother dance and my table was right by the dance floor. I buried my head into Martin’s shoulder and cried. Martin had tears because he could see Andrew dancing with me on the dance floor. I can’t wait till I can hold him in my arms again! Then seeing all of DeDe and Brett’s family with all these kids was hard on me too. Empty nest syndrome hit me too! Gee the fun for me never ends! All our family is in Ireland, we have none here other than the 3 of us. It was just overwhelming for me. It was a reminder of how much I have lost. But Elatia and DeDe were stunning, absolutely stunning looking!

Here I was worried about changing the bulb in the fairy light and it has been on MORE than ever before! Andrew hasn’t missed a day yet turning it on! He knows how much it means to me. I’ve been in mama gene mode lately no matter how much I try not to be, so yea, I’ve been struggling.

John Edward/Andrew came through for me again this weekend. I was watching Cross Country Saturday and the messages couldn’t be more perfect. I have to check and see if Andrew’s name comes up in the credits as a producer for the show or something! LOL

John had 2 mothers on who lost sons. The 2nd lost her son to leukemia at 15, he was diagnosed at 11. Could I relate?? Hell yes! His friends still leave messages on his myspace just like Andrew’s do. His mother hadn’t celebrated the holidays since he left. Martin and I did at least. We did what we have always done our forst Christmas without Andrew because we knew Andrew wanted us to. Although this year is going to be harder than last year. John confirmed it too! He said the 2nd anniversary with the holidays is harder than the first. While we are coming up on Andrew’s 1st anniversary of his ascension, it’s the 2nd time without him for the holidays. This year we don’t have the shock to get us through. I am soooo dreading the holidays this year. I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep till next year when I get back from our mini tour in Nov. Oh what I would give to be a hibernating bear this year!

I guess I just need to trust that Andrew will make this holiday special too. My sis in law Anne Marie in Ireland, was trying to make it over for Christmas, which woulda been sooo cool, but her hubby Tony couldn’t get off work! Baaaaa Waaaaaaa! I’m still hoping we can go to Ireland for Christmas and New Years. It’s a long shot. I just know I don’t wanna be here.

If not, I am hoping Wesley can be here for Christmas like he has been in the past. I told him to make a list of what he wants for Andrew’s room and we’ll see what we can get and he can open presents up here Christmas morning. That’s my back up plan. Wes’s family has celebrated Christmas early before.

So as you can tell I have all these emotions running wild and me trying to control them. Yea, I lose most of the time. :-( I’ve been writing in the journal I started for Andrew when I was pregnant with him. I’ve been open and honest on here enough, I don’t have to put it all out there for the world to see anymore, just the cool stuff now.

So that is the latest, all in one post!


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  1. Karen T. says:

    I know your son will hold your hand through whatever the holidays bring. He loves you so very much!! Hugs to you.

  2. Jane says:


    That is so cool that John Edward and Andrew came through with messages. Very cool.

    I will join you in affirming that you and Martin (and Elatia and Andrew) are in Ireland for this Christmas.

  3. Lord Horus says:

    Just wanted to say I was there when Connie was watching one of the John Edward shows and I too could see that some of the messages were for Connie.

    I believe we have hit the turning point for this year and from here on out things will be moving up. Let’s confirm and intend the trip to Ireland then Connie, I’d like to go with you guys this time too. Gotta see some ruins.


  4. admin says:

    I know Karen, I have to trust Andrew and he will do what he can to make our holidays special this year too.

    I may have to e-mail John Edward to see if he’s seen Andrew around the studio directing LOL

    Thank you Jane. One moment I wan to be in Ireland and the next I want to be home. Soooo I will just trust that all is in Divine order & we will be right where we are suppose to be.

    All I care about now is that things stay on the upward and onward turn! With any luck we’ll get some gigs in England next year and we’ll leave from Ireland to do it. What? It could happen! :-)

  5. Swati says:

    I love how he goes out of his way to show you his presence. When are you planning to go to Ireland?

  6. Leila says:

    ((((Connie)))) I think you should contact John Edward…not sure why-just that you should! :-)

    I too trust that all is in Divine order and you will be just where you are supposed to be for the holidays and where ever that may be I know you will be surround and supported in love and grace.

    Looking forward to seeing you next month!!!

    Much love & hugs

  7. Tammy says:

    I haven’t been on the blog lately been BUSY as hell….so I am getting caught up on the reading & when you were watching your John Edwards, I was watching the same one!!! Thinking the same things & wondering if you were watching it…..
    I can’t wait to see you guys!!!!
    Love Tammy

  8. admin says:

    No plans for Ireland yet Swati. If I could I would go for the holidays. I even thought about going to Laguna for the holidays. But if Wesley can come over for Christmas, it might be worth staying home.

    I have thought about contacting John Edward, Leila. I’d ask him if he’s had a young man around named Andrew talking to him. OR hanging around the tapings of his show. I was thinking John knew that the messages that couldn’t get validated were for some people at home for this young man hanging around the studio. ;-)

    I can’t wait to get to Laguna Tammy! I am sooooooo looking forward to it! I don’t want the trip to end!!!!

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