I talk about still standing after 3 1/2 months in the hospital. I also need to talk about still standing after being suddenly thrown out into the outside world!

I don’t think people realize just how much Martin and I are dealing with! How could you really? Unless you have gone through something this huge, how could you know? SO I will tell you. ;-)

Not only are Martin and I dealing with the physical loss of our son, which is HUGE enough just with that, I wish that’s all we had to deal with! But we are still coming down from all the stress of being in the hospital for nearly 4 months. That was one long running adrenalin trip. There was always something to deal with everyday while in the hospital. Watching your son going through things no child should ever have to go through. Feeling helpless that you can’t do it for him or take any of it away from him. It is horrible to feel so helpless as a parent that you can’t stop a disease or the treatment from ravaging your beautiful son. Nearly 4 months in the hospital takes it’s toll so we have that to deal with too.

NOW we have to deal with everything that was hold on the out side world! I won’t go into the countless things we are dealing with just with the house alone. Thank goodness we had some help with the minor stuff.

It’s not like we got to slowly acclimate ourselves or even had notice that we would be entering the outside world again. We were hurled straight back into it so fast it was startling! Starting with FUNeral service arrangements as soon as we left the hospital, obituaries, out of town guests, trying to get our heads around the fact Andrew was no longer here. We were one of the lucky ones! We knew someone in “the biz” so she walked Martin through` the arrangements.

Then realizing we had no income coming in on top of that! We now had to worry about getting an income coming in ASAP! Andrew was gone so the benefits that were planned fell to the way side. SO while trying to deal with our grief, the upcoming holidays, let’s not forget we had those too to deal with, a trip to Ireland to get the family thing over with right away, we had to start figuring out how to get money coming in! Thank goodness for the generosity of so many because they took care of us while we were in the hospital. We were taking care of through Dec. with Ireland really pulling through for us too! *Phew*

But can you even imagine having to deal with all of this!?? Like the ascension wasn’t enough??? This has been a nightmare on so many levels!

This is when I realized that there needs to be a Make A Wish of sorts for parents. That is my goal! I want to start a foundation to help parents after they have had such a stressful and traumatic time like this, to be able to get away and decompress. Martin and I have had no real rest since July 11th. I can see how this could destroy relationships. We are one of the lucky ones that we became even closer. But we are still stressed!

I just know Martin and I could use a serious vacation of just relaxing and not having to worry about anything and be pampered for a change.

I would love to have a retreat where parents can come and be pampered and only be concerned with themselves and be able to reconnect with one another. I would like to have counselors there to help them acclimate back into their lives. Help them deal with grief if need be. Something like the Miravol Spa Oprah talks about. A place that will soothe their bodies and feed their souls!

Like I said before, the parents are the forgotten heroes in all of this. They need to be pampered and taken care of too! It takes such a toll on your emotions, your spirit, & your body. It’s a wonder any parents survive!

So hopefully one day I will be able to start something like that. It’s on top of my goal list. Kids that go through something this stressful deserve to have rested & rejuvenated parents in their lives!


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  1. Karen T. says:

    I haven’t a clue, but amen to that!

  2. Dana says:

    “Make it so Number One!” :)

    Seriously – that’s a great idea! You’ll find a way!

  3. kimberley says:

    First of all God Bless you & Martin and may everything you need
    be manifested immediately.
    I wish for you and Martin a time for relaxation and pampering, too.
    You so DESERVE it !!!
    You said “A place that would soothe their bodies and feed their souls”
    You may want to look at
    It is run and founded by Sri Vasudeva, who is AMAZING and I’m sure if
    you shared your story, they would be able to work something out with you -just a thought-
    Everything will fall into place perfectly for you ( including the financial situation)
    I wonder what sign you’ll get today ?

  4. Leah Clark says:

    Connie – I think it’s a commendable enterprise (sorry, The Dana made me do it… LMAO!!!). Count me in for helping wid it!

  5. admin says:

    Well, I’m starting off with manicures at the hospital and see where it goes from there.

  6. Swati says:

    Connie…its amazing how in this time you can still think of positive things to do to help out others. That is such an amazing idea. I will do all I can to help you with this mission.


  7. Swati says:

    Hey, I’m popping in again…you will be performing at the ATP course this year, right? I am praying that that will bring you a lot more recognition, and help in all your endeavors.

  8. admin says:

    Ahhhhh geez! A bunch of Star Wars geeks! Or is it Star Trek? LOL Like it matters! LOL LOL

    Thank you Kimberly for your kind words! I did check out the link and I see they have a place in Sunrise Fla where I use to live. I can’t imagine that it is a retreat because Sunrise is a built up town right by Ft. Lauderdale. It must be a center.

    Well Swati, I would like to see parents get what they need. Having a child with such a serious diagnosis is horrendous! Then to lose them?? There is no word for it. It totally changes your life and who you are forever! It definitely wipes you out. And there are no resources to help the parents once back on the outside. Yea, there is support groups if you lose a child, that’s not what I’m talking about. Can you even imagine us in one of those groups?? If there was a group with like minded people and a counselor that gets it then I would go. In fact I will probable go see Karen Palmer when I go to SO-Cal again. She’s a psychologist, a shaman, AND a psychic! Now that’s my kind of counselor!

    Yup! We’ll be at the AATP(r)! We’re kicking off the realms party. We’re doing 45 mins. We’re suppose to be doing our full show at the Aloha Angel Theater that holds 320. Looking forward to the trip. I was going to bring Andrew with us so everyone who joined in on his healing circles & sent prayers could meet him….physically. Oh well no such luck

  9. Susan says:

    Your parent pampering idea is so fabulous! Count me in to do whatever I can! I got a TON of angel bumps readings about your ideas! I have a feeling that mediumship could be a great comfort to those parents that have a child pass during the process. Maybe that is how some of the ATPs and mediums here could help out.

    I am excited to here that you and Martin will be at AATP in Oct! It will be nice to meet you in person!

    Much love and blessings!
    Susan :)

  10. Leah Clark says:

    Hey Connie – that would be a great name! Parent Pamperers! Or does that sound too much like diapers? LOL

  11. Dana says:

    *quote* The Dana *quote*

    :D :D :D :D

    *whispers to Connie*

    Those 2 were ‘Star Trek’ ;)

    It sounds like you already have lots of supporters Connie! Go for it!

  12. admin says:

    Yea, mediumship would be a nice thing to add to the retreat. I honestly don’t know what I would do if Martin wasn’t such a fantab medium! I mean it’s still so very hard. I sit here and the tears just fall a lot! I think because I’m home and not doing anything but hanging around the house and on the blog is why the tears are always a flowing.

    Martin pointed out that if we weren’t who we are and do what we do he wouldn’t have been our son. Part of the plan was to have at least one parent that was a medium so the work would continue.

    I know things will fall into place at the right time. I think I may end up working with an established spa retreat instead of starting one from the ground up. It’d be the quickest way to get something started.

    Oh goodie! I look forward to meeting you too!!

  13. Swati says:

    Oh Mediumship would be great to add to this venture Connie! In fact it is essential.

    And Leah…yes that name sounds scarily like diapers. LOLOLOLOLOL!!

  14. Dana says:

    Well, mediumship is what folks crave most if they have lost someone. My mom and aunt found a great medium after my dad and uncle died within 9 months of each other. They went for only one or 2 readings as I recall. Then my mom began channeling my dad herself thru automatic writing (now that would be coolio – but I have yet to do it myself!)

    At any rate – tis the comfort factor to be sure! My one true healing came when a crossed over loved one barged into a past life regression and his mom was healed of 4 yrs of grief and physical pain! THAT was cool!

    You can do it Connie! *shakes my pom-poms*

  15. admin says:

    I’m sure Andrew will help bring opportunities in to me.

    Parent Pamperers Leah?? Yea, will definitely get misunderstood! Especially in God’s Waiting Room!

  16. Leah Clark says:

    Oh, I don’t know… I think it Depends… hahahaha!!!!

  17. Susan says:

    You all are too funny! I agree that Parent Pamperers is too diaper-y. Were you thinking that the organization should be in one location and parents come to a retreat, or it is like Make-a-wish where they have a local group helping out? What is the greatest need for parents? Or does it vary from family to family?

  18. admin says:

    I was thinking about having a retreat that parents can go to so they can decompress, relax, and get rejuvenated. Time for themselves to be pampered. I was thinking about working with an existing spa retreat.

    How about Pampered Parents? After going through what we did, any place where we can get pampered would’ve been great. Any place is better than a hospital!

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