JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

Andrew sent me another song. It usually takes me hearing it a few times before I get that it’s from him. First it starts with me thinking, “Hey, I really like that song.” Then I finally start listening to the words. I was listening to Bruno Mar’s song, “Just The Way You Are” on the radio on the way home from the gym today. As I’m listening to it, certain lines are jumping out at me and I think, “Muck would say that to me if he were here.” Nope still doesn’t twig with me that he might be sending me this song.

I get home and immediately, I mean I felt like I had to rush to do it, turn on the music channel. I do and what song is on? You guessed it, “Just The Way You Are” by Bruno Mars. So I decided that I needed to sit and listen to it instead of jumping right in the shower to get ready for the baby doc appointment with Elatia. As I am sitting in my chair listening to the song, the tears well up and start to spill over my cheeks as I feel Andrew’s energy surround me as he wants me to feel these words as if he was speaking directly to me. He was letting me now it would be one of our songs we would sing to one another in the car like we use to do. Andrew was reminding me how much I am loved because he knows I don’t always feel it with everything that has happened. Not that Martin doesn’t always show me love because he does, but these past few years in order to survive, I shut down, and when you do something like that to survive, you don’t let anything in, good or bad, you are just numb. It’s hard to explain but I did sit and allowed myself to feel the words and Andrew’s energy hence the tears. Here are the words…

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE
Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me (I heard him say to this “but not in a creepy way Pretty Mama” which made me laugh through my tears)
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy (again, “but not in an inappropriate, creepy way,” again me laughing)

She’s so beautiful And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Andrew was always telling me how much he loved me and I have mentioned before his “Who’s the Prettiest Mama in the world?” that he’d always ask me and I always had to say “me,” And he’d say, “That’s right!” He was letting me know that I’m still the Prettiest Mama and perfect the way I am.

To back up that he sent me the first song and to delay my shower a few more minutes, Bon Jovi’s song came on right after “We Weren’t Born To Follow” which was yet another great message about not making apologies for who I am, and yes I have been brought to my knees, but I have to hold on to what I believe. Sometimes I have wondered if all of this has been for nothing. Is this just one big cosmic joke? Of course I know it’s not but there are moments it does feel that way. So this song was also a great message from Muck and continued to make the tears flow. Here a some of the lyrics that spoke to me.

WE WEREN’T BORN TO FOLLOW
We Weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that’s a saints and sinners pleas
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yea, Yea, Yea, ooooohhh,, Yea

This ones about anyone who does it differently
This ones about the one who doesn’t sit and spits
This ain’t about our living in a fantasy
This ain’t about giving up or giving in
We Weren’t Born To Follow (AMEN Jon!)

IT’S ALL GOOD!