Geez Dana, sorry. I didn’t think it mattered if I blogged everyday or not. Good to know there is some people out there still wanting more! ;-) Oh yea, pity party ahead, you have been warned!
Yesterday I was having a hard day. With the holidays here, I’m unable to do any shopping, I have no kids at home, the only present under my tree this year, is wiener dog pee I have to keep cleaning, blah, blah, blah, I was just feeling my loss a lot yesterday. Sitting around the house by myself is no help. We had to postpone recording the music cd last night because Danny has to move unexpectedly, so that really bummed me out. Even though I know it’s not true, I felt like this project is never gonna get off the ground. I don’t have anything to do day in and day out so a night of recording was pretty exciting to me and I didn’t want to wait, it’s what is keeping me going right now. Focusing on booking shows and promoting the music cd keeps my spirits up. Now having to wait a few more weeks was bumming me out. Very drama queenie I know. But sure, that can’t be any surprise o those that have been coming here for quite awhile now. ;-)
It was weigh in day at Weigh Watcher’s and I was down a bit, dropped 19 lbs so far. Elatia is maintaining her 57 lb loss really well. She usually comes by afterwards before she had to go to work. Now she’s off on Mondays, so we have been spending more time together on Monday’s. She asked me to go to the mall with her. At first I said “No.” Then I thought “What is the matter with you, you whiny ass baby! You moan and groan about being lonely and you turn down going out with your daughter??” So once I was done bitch slapping myself, I cheerfully told her “Sure I’ll go!” :-)
We went to a store going out of business so she could buy 3 kids some clothes. Long Horns steak house where she works, sponsor a family at Christmas and everyone buys the family something. As Elatia was shopping for 3 of the 6 kids this single mother has, I walked around the store continuing my little pity party silently. As I’m walking around I see this t-shirt hanging that catches my eye. It’s a t-shirt in the teen boys section of clothes. It says “I heart (pic of red heart) Mommy” As I’m staring at this shirt, I’m wondering what Mama’s boy is wanting his ass kicked at school wearing this. Then I hear, “No, it’s for you Pretty Mama” then I got that tingly feeling in my head when I feel Andrew. Oh, so it was a message for me from Andrew to try and get me out of my pity party. The tears welled up in my eyes as I could feel Andrew’s energy with me. Then he has me look around and the first t-shirt I see is a black one with the words “World’s Greatest Dad” Andrew was letting me know how much Martin and I mean to him. I stood there and let his energy fill my soul. In the middle of this tore up, clothes everywhere, prices slashed store, I was having a mother/son moment with my beloved son on the Other Side. I don’t care where I have these moments, as long as I keep having them!
He’s a good son!
IT’S ALL GOOD!