Geez Dana, sorry. I didn’t think it mattered if I blogged everyday or not. Good to know there is some people out there still wanting more! ;-) Oh yea, pity party ahead, you have been warned!

Yesterday I was having a hard day. With the holidays here, I’m unable to do any shopping, I have no kids at home, the only present under my tree this year, is wiener dog pee I have to keep cleaning, blah, blah, blah, I was just feeling my loss a lot yesterday. Sitting around the house by myself is no help. We had to postpone recording the music cd last night because Danny has to move unexpectedly, so that really bummed me out. Even though I know it’s not true, I felt like this project is never gonna get off the ground. I don’t have anything to do day in and day out so a night of recording was pretty exciting to me and I didn’t want to wait, it’s what is keeping me going right now. Focusing on booking shows and promoting the music cd keeps my spirits up. Now having to wait a few more weeks was bumming me out. Very drama queenie I know. But sure, that can’t be any surprise o those that have been coming here for quite awhile now. ;-)

It was weigh in day at Weigh Watcher’s and I was down a bit, dropped 19 lbs so far. Elatia is maintaining her 57 lb loss really well. She usually comes by afterwards before she had to go to work. Now she’s off on Mondays, so we have been spending more time together on Monday’s. She asked me to go to the mall with her. At first I said “No.” Then I thought “What is the matter with you, you whiny ass baby! You moan and groan about being lonely and you turn down going out with your daughter??” So once I was done bitch slapping myself, I cheerfully told her “Sure I’ll go!” :-)

We went to a store going out of business so she could buy 3 kids some clothes. Long Horns steak house where she works, sponsor a family at Christmas and everyone buys the family something. As Elatia was shopping for 3 of the 6 kids this single mother has, I walked around the store continuing my little pity party silently. As I’m walking around I see this t-shirt hanging that catches my eye. It’s a t-shirt in the teen boys section of clothes. It says “I heart (pic of red heart) Mommy” As I’m staring at this shirt, I’m wondering what Mama’s boy is wanting his ass kicked at school wearing this. Then I hear, “No, it’s for you Pretty Mama” then I got that tingly feeling in my head when I feel Andrew. Oh, so it was a message for me from Andrew to try and get me out of my pity party. The tears welled up in my eyes as I could feel Andrew’s energy with me. Then he has me look around and the first t-shirt I see is a black one with the words “World’s Greatest Dad” Andrew was letting me know how much Martin and I mean to him. I stood there and let his energy fill my soul. In the middle of this tore up, clothes everywhere, prices slashed store, I was having a mother/son moment with my beloved son on the Other Side. I don’t care where I have these moments, as long as I keep having them!

He’s a good son!


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13 Responses to I HEART MOMMY!

  1. Swati says:

    Of course it matters that you blog regularly! We come and check! :-)

    And that T-shirt messaging from Andrew was simply FABULOUS! I will take away the “W” sign for a while….but just for a while! :-D Did you buy the T-shirts?

    I have your CD’s made. Just don’t have the darned CD-mailers! Once you get them, start having fun with them. They really are fun! I just wish I had the time to do it in peace. But I will find time somehow.

  2. Karen T. says:

    That’s awesome Connie! He is soooo good to you on this journey. And yes, I visit daily. Not always chatty, but always reading and feeling with you the way one Mama heart does for another’s that is going through the stuff that you are. I will remember to atleast say hi to let you know I’ve been here reading. Yes Connie…blog please. Hugs!

  3. Dana says:

    Yes, I always try to stop by and at least read if something new is going on. Of course, now that I’m finished with school for awhile, I have more time!

    So glad you decided to go out and do a little shopping (even if it was only window shopping!) Isn’t it amazing that there is never a missed opportunity for a message? How awesome is Andrew!

    Weiner dog pee….hahaha! We have a HUGE orange fluffy boy who was mad a couple of Christmases ago that we were not paying attention to HIM and promptly pee’d in an empty gift box (Thank the Force it was empty!) Of course, that was a total show stopper and everyone (kind of) jokes about whether or not Jack will pee on Christmas again or not? ;) :D

  4. Pretty Mama says:

    Martin and I went back the next morning to get the t-shirts…the I love Mommy one was no where to be found. SO either some kid is going to get his ass kicked in school when his mother makes him wear it or it was just a message for me to see. Elatia saw it and thought it was odd and wondered what mama’s boy would have the “cubes” to wear it ANYWHERE as well.

    Looking forward to the cd’s Swati! Thank you so much! I have Andrew’s room ready for lift off! ;-) I’m using his room for my special space to astral travel. His room has such a great energy and vortex so hopefully lift off will be easy for me. It’d be nice if something was easy for me for a change!

    Responses to the blog mean a lot to me because usually I have no contact with anyone unless it is here. Sometimes I can get something going on the ATP(r) board but other than message boards, I don’t have a lot of contact with people personally. I know that unlike me, people actually have a life. Man! I just love these pity parties! Then I think that maybe I am not ready to be around people yet. Who knows. On the upside, we joined a creative leads club and it looks like we might be getting some leads on getting ourselves out there. *doing kick ass happy dance!* I am actually looking forward to 2009. That is a good thing.

    Thanks for stopping by Swati, Karen and WELCOME BACK Dana! ;-)

  5. Leah Clark says:

    Wow – THAT one gave me goosebumps for sure! And same here – I check just about every day, but I don’t always tell you I’m here. I need to remember to do that. I wish we lived closer and that my schoodeeyo was better equipped. We’ll just keep visualizing that the CD will get done in the perfect, Divine time. I mean, if Andrew can design a shirt just for you, he can CERTAINLY make that happen, right? ;)

  6. Dana says:

    *quote* I don’t have a lot of contact with people personally. *quote*

    Strangely enough…me either! All of my friends are online and do not live in my state (and one doesn’t even live in the country! On the plus side tho, I have a standing invite to Australia ;) )

    I don’t count the folks at work cuz most of ’em drive me nuts ;) Ooops! Did I type that out loud? *angelic face* But seriously, this is the only place (besides home that is) where I can be myself. And sometimes even at home I have to keep my more ‘out there’ views to myself. Oh well…

  7. Pretty Mama says:

    Woe! Check out the times each of you posted! Leah-3:33 and Dana-4:44 Cool huh??

    I should probably just count my blessings and trust that I am exactly where I need to be…right? It’s just that there has been soooooo much for me to deal with these past 2 yrs starting with Elatia nearly passing, that I think I am on emotional over load and just flat out frazzled. You’d think being away a month would have helped but not when you lose money the whole way and have to come back and figure out how to pay it all off. Wow! I just can’t get away from these pity parties! What is my deal??? Oh well, celeste a vive.

    At least Muck still “hearts” Mommy!

  8. Swati says:

    Pretty Mama, even I don’t have any local friends. All of you guys are online. Maybe thats why I am one of the most regular people at your blog? LOLOLOL!!! No, seriously, even with all the jewelry classes, kids and what not going on constantly in my life, I don’t ever feel I am one of those who you say have a life. hahahaha!! Btw, Ms. Pretty Mama, my final project is done, so please come to my blog and see it! I’m mighty proud of it! If you have lost the address of my blog (maybe I should throw some tantrums! No one comes to my blog till I threaten them with gun shot wounds), then it is:


    And you better keep writing your blog regularly because I told ya I have no life! This is one of those things in my life I look forward to. So you better come here and write :-D, even if you just come and say, “I don’t know what to write…I am twiddling my thumbs…but I am just typing something or else Swati will go crazy….blah blah yakkity yakk yak yak”, that’s fine. Just come and write something. I mean it seriously when I say this is one of the things I look forward to….and I’m not saying that to be nice to you.

    And now to be nice to you, I’m sending you hugs! We need emoticons here.

  9. Pretty Mama says:

    Wow Swati! That is amazing! Absolutely gorgeous! I will have to go to your blog and harass there too then. I have a blog on blogspot that I use to be on a lot when the angel board pissed me off. :-) I would go on and just babble to myself.I found it amusing anyway. And we do need emoticons here!

  10. Pretty Mama says:

    Oh BTW post on the forum, start a thread there, so we can keep up easily in case we forget to check out your new creations.

  11. Dana says:

    Oooo….I did not see the ‘333’ and ‘444’

  12. Dana says:

    WTF? Where did the rest of my wee postie go?!?

  13. Leah Clark says:

    Wow, Swati – I’ve been away from your page for WAAAAY too long! I LOVE the prayer box, and Natasha’s moon, and – and – and just EVERYTHING! So beautiful… just like you… :)

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