I really do get it. I get the fact that the 3 of us contracted for this hard, sacred journey. I get it that Andrew wasn’t going to stay no matter what we did. I get it that there is a much bigger picture in all of this. I get it that Andrew is an Avatar and is doing amazing things where he is back at our REAL home. (a castle I might add) I get that he is NOT really gone, just on a higher vibration. I get it that our Earth life isn’t the real deal, just a place to learn, that there is so much more than being here. That is what is helping to keep me somewhat sane in all of this and off any medication….so far.
The issue I have here is, is that I want to FEEL the bigger picture! It’s one thing to know it, I want to feel it so I can be excited about it. Right? How the hell am I suppose to be excited about my son’s ascension?? Yea, I’m not sure either, I just know that that is what Andrew wants. I know he wants me to be happy even though he left me dammit! *stomps feet in 1 long tantrum* So that is what I am working on. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do!!
I am desperately trying to focus on who he is now. I guess as times goes on it will become easier. It’s just so easy to focus on who he was here because that’s where all of my experience is with him.
I’m going to have Martin do a regression with me so I can go and be where Andrew is for awhile. I think it will help me to accept better where he is now if I can spend some time with him there. Maybe give me a glimpse into what we have coming up. :-D A Mom can dream can’t she??
IT’S ALL GOOD!