As hard as Christmas Day has been with not getting any signs from Andrew all day, like no fairy light on, no dragon moving around his room, no nothing, but we did have a great night Christmas Eve night. Denise came by, another friend we hadn’t seen in over 4 yrs that we met through our store came over with his girlfriend, Wesley, Elatia and some friends from her work were here. We played a game, we ate, we drank, we B.S.’d and laughed till the wee hours of the morning, then Martin sang a few songs for us till about 4:00am. Yup! You read that right, 4a.m. It was really a lot of fun and great to laugh so much. I wasn’t sure if anyone was really going to show up, but the perfect people did.
Elatia and Wesley were here for Christmas dinner. We are all tired from last night’s festivities and serious lack of sleep, so we just hung around the house chillin. I may leave the tree up until I can put presents under it…if it doesn’t take all year long.
So tonight Martin and I were sitting here watching “Gordon Ramsey Kitchen Nightmares” as I was whining about not getting any signs all day from Andrew today, then I got a thought in my head, it was Andrew, “I’m busy working on the New Year… the bigger picture Pretty Mama.” Yea, I know, I am high maintenance. I just felt that as I was typing about my whining. ;-) He knows he can still kid with me. That’s just how we roll.
Then a few moments later something odd happens. The light on my past life Goddess of Avalon portrait starts flickering. It’s NEVER done that before. I say something to Martin about seeing it but he’s too into Gordon Ramsey and tuning out my whining to hear me. The light keeps flickering and I comment on how maybe the light is getting ready to burn out. I was waiting to see if my portrait went dark, hoping it wouldn’t because then it would mean it was just the bulb. The light flickers a few more times then it stops and the light is on like nothing has happened. FINALLY I get Martin’s attention and he missed the whole flickering thing. I tell him what had happened and how I couldn’t believe he missed it, it was hard to miss! Martin says to me “It’s Muck, tune in, what is he telling you?”
I got that Andrew was letting me to know that he in deed was around us, but is really busy setting things up for us for 2009. I got the feeling that the days of us sitting around waiting, are going to be over soon. That all our hard work is ready to pay off, the seeds that we have planted are ready to sproutÂ :-D :-D Well, that would explain the 222’s I’ve been seeing a lot of lately.
So while I may not have gotten the Christmas day I really wanted, and never will again really, I did get a day I can be thankful for and that in itself is a gift! It’s just not a gift that I can unwrap or can put under the tree, but a gift non the less. ;-) Let’s face it, gratefulness is the best gift I can have in dealing with grief during the holidays. Once I can be grateful in the most trying/depressing of times, moving through grief becomes easier. It means I am moving forward. And that my friends is progress! And a Christmas miracle in my book! God bless us one and all. (had to end this with a cheesy xmas saying)
IT’S ALL GOOD!