As some of you may know, ;-) I have been struggling with everything that has been going on. I’ve been hit with a ton of crap since Andrew ascended. You’d think I’d be thrown a bone, a break, a reprieve, but no, just more crap to deal with! Sometimes I’m ok and other times I’m a complete and utter mess! I know it is to be expected but it still sucks! I am on the edge.
It’s hard for me to focus on anything. I write here and wonder what the hell was that?? Did I leave my body?? Did I just channel some entity from another dimension that doesn’t speak the language?? It is complete and utter gibberish! I write things that make no sense! If I didn’t know better I would swear I was having a stroke sometimes when I write! It’s only because I go over and over and over again what I’ve written that this blog is some what comprehensible. After I post it, I STILL have to go over it and correct my writing. It just shouldn’t be that hard with spell check!
I forget things easily. I’ll have a thought and it just leaves my head and I haven’t a clue what the hell I was going to say or do, even in the middle of a sentence, unless I say it over and over again in my head. That’s one reason I haven’t gone for even a waitress job. 1. I HATE waitressing but 2. I think I would have a break down at the job because I would get easily disorientated.
I don’t take the full dose that I would like to of my herbs for a mood elevator because I’m trying to make them last longer because I don’t want to be w/o them. That ain’t good as it could cost some stupid person their life! I need help with my Jekyll & Hyde syndrome.
BUT help is on the way! Denise is coming over tomorrow night to give me a Valium accupressure treatment! SO maybe I can actually chill out for a bit. I’m hoping I can get a reprieve emotionally for a little while so I can focus on more positive things. Here’s hoping!!!!
IT’S ALL GOOD!