This whole Jekyll and Hyde thing needs to stop already! It gets to be too much sometimes! I honestly don’t know how I keep it together sometimes!
When I start to miss Andrew beyond belief, my Higher Self kicks in and reminds me that I won’t be stuck here forever. There are times when I feel like this is my life forever and ever, that I will be stuck for all eternity on EARTH missing Andrew. Like I’m not ever going to “die!” Hellooooooo! I won’t be on this planet forever, I will get to ascend too someday!! DUH! *jumps up and down in excitement!*
My great grandmother lost her son at 7 yrs old. Hmm it was pneumonia too! Remember, it wasn’t leukemia that took Andrew, he was in remission, it was bacterial pneumonia.
Now my great grandmother didn’t pass on till she was in her 70’s, no thank you! I wanna go sooner! She mourned her son till the day she crossed. BUT she is with her son now! So my Higher Self reminds me that I too will one day, soon enough, (but not soon enough for me) be with Andrew again the way I want to be. I will be able to hug him, kiss him and be with him like we use to be! This life here won’t be forever, sooooo snap out of it!
SO that is what I’m trying to do when I get hit with the reality of Andrew really not being here physically. I still expect him to come home because it just seems like he went off to college or something. The shock wears off from time to time and I get hit with a very hard dose of 3rd dimensional reality & it gets pretty rough for me. I feel like it shouldn’t because I know the truth about Andrew and where he is. BUT my Higher Self kicks in and Martin, & they remind me of the true reality, which is the Other Side not here.
So yea, Andrew still needs to do a lot of work on me. He doesn’t mind doing it for his Pretty Mama tho because…..
IT’S ALL GOOD!