Martin was in meeting w/dr’s all day today. That’s never a good sign and I was right. I was sleeping till 4p.m. today. We got to the hospital at 9:45a.m. yesterday so I was ready for bed at 9a.m. this morning. That’s why I wasn’t at the hospital today and it was better that I was not. I wouldn’t have taken the news that well by the dr’s.
Â ANdrew’s white cell count hit 80,000 today from 22,000 yesterday and from 1500 Friday. Sooooo he is NOT in remission. :-( We need this 2nd round of chemo to work so he can get a bone marrow transplant. YUP! you read right. He needs a bone marrow transplant. If this round of chemo does not put him into remission I don’t know what the next step will be. From whatÂ understand they only do the bone marrow transplant ifÂ he goes into remission.
So, my son, the most enlightened being I know, is in the fight for his life. I can not help but get angery when I get news like this because allÂ I can think about is the asswholes, people who are a total waste of oxygen, always bitching and moaning, not taking care of themselves,Â appreciating nothing!Â Are allowed to walk around healthy and continue being asswholes! Yet my son who appreciates EVERYTHING! Loves life like no one I’ve ever seen, is lying in a hospital bed fighting for his life! Hardly seems fair!Â How much is a mother’s heart suppose to take. I nearly lost my daughter in Dec to an illness and now my son. Honestly! How much is a mother’s heart suppose to take????? I’d like to know!!
So there’s no dancing dogs or hula dancers or anything else cute on this post. I’m pissed! My son deserves remission!
THANK YOU FOR ANDREW’S MIRACLE HEALING AND HEALTHY BONE MARROW!!