I know most people would think I would be looking forward to this year ending with as hard as it’s been. But as I’ve said before, I’m not. I am not looking forward to starting a new year without my son here physically. I’m just not! *holds breath in tantrum* passes out…………………..
WOW! That was weird! LOL Anyway, Andrew reminds me that he is still here and I remind him it’s NOT the same! *stomps feet now in tantrum* I want things back the way they were DAMMIT! But we all know that ain’t gonna happen so I gotta go find them big girl panties, put them on and forge ahead some how.
When I was leaving today to get my hair done, to restore my “natural” red luster, ;-) Martin said Andrew told him “It won’t be long now.” Won’t be long for what? I hear ya Swati and Dana! ;-) Well, I won’t get my hopes up and think I get to leap soon. That would be too good. Martin and I think it will be shown to us soon what our purpose is, in all of this. We know Andrew didn’t ascend so we could look at an empty room. We believe we will be giving Muck Messages and teachings to the masses.
SO we just sit tight and wait to see what opportunities come our way and then pounce on them! I told Andrew that if I could spend the rest of my life talking about him or giving messages from him, well then I’ll stay. Those are my demands and I’m sticking to it!
Here’s the deal about the book. I told Andrew that I ain’t gonna write the book! I refuse to put myself through all of the emotional stuff again to only have 900 books (I figure we could probably sell 100 ) sitting on my shelf! I’m just not going to do it! It’s too much to ask of me! I let Martin know too. He said, “then we’ll get a few chapters done and send it to some publishers.” So we’ll see. Unless we have a solid way to market the book, I am not writing it! Oh yes, *holding breath again!* Now I’m just doing it for fun!…………………………
So we are off to the Irish Rover tonight with Denise and Wesley. Martin might be able to sing “Imagine” tonight. That will probably be a tear jerker! We think we’ll be staying till midnight but who knows. Alls I know is that I’m open to all possibilities!
You’ll want to stay tuned for the next blog, it’s gonna be a little on the freaky deaky side for a lot of you! BUT very cool & what Andrew was always into! Get your quantum physics hats on peeps! ;-)
Gotta go and git my purdy on now! :-D
We wish you the the Happiest, HEALTHIEST, & Prosperous of New Years! We love you!
IT’S ALL GOOD!