Martin and I have been discussing how much we have needed these past 3 weeks. We feel rejuvenated and just plain peaceful! Even though we were really busy, having family here to hang with and laugh with, did us the world of good! It has been so long overdue for us to just be able to chill and have fun and not worry or deal with anything. We look refreshed and like we have been on vacation. It has felt like a real vacation. Andrew was a pat of it all too. Martin would always share what funny comment Andrew had or funny thing he was doing right along with us. Andrew even picked out a present for Chrissy when we were at Universal. It was me he told to get it.

We went to Orlando on Monday morning so AnneMarie and Tony could go to Disney before they had to leave on Tuesday. Martin and I hung out at the hotel and just enjoyed the down time. Later Elatia came up with a friend. So the 6 of us hung around the pool late Monday night having a great time. Martin sang and played the guitar pool side.

I thought I was going to have the tears and snotters flowing freely when we had to take them to the airport but I actually did very well when we had to say good bye to AnneMarie and Tony. Just watery eyes. When Chrissy left, having AnneMarie & Tony still here helped. I think having our show be such a huge success Saturday night really helped when they left. Knowing we have something incredible that we are doing and it is going to take off soon helped take the sting out of being alone again.

AnneMarie and Tony want to move here, dunno how it will happen. I’m hoping it’s because we are so busy that we can hire them. We have that potential. I’m hoping this feeling lasts, I like it. I know doing these concerts really do help me deal with things. Sitting around the house makes it worse. While we are still pushing this rock up the hill, I think we are getting closer to the top of that hill and soon it will be rolling on it’s own and we can enjoy the ride.

These past 3 weeks really helped shift a lot of grief energy for me and I am going to continue to bask in the after glow of all the love and laughter that we shared with our family.


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  1. Leah Clark says:

    That’s so awesome, Connie – I know those feelings will be present more and more often now. Okay, since Swati’s MIA, I’m going to start bugging you now to tell us about “Muckasaurus”. *assumes stalking position with scary stalking face* Man, this is a LOT of work! Swaaaaatiiii… come rescue meeeeeee!!!!!

  2. Jeremy says:

    You have no idea how grateful I am to hear you say all that. I’m glad that the past three weeks have done such a wonderful thing for you two. You did truly deserve all those good times, and there are many more to come.

  3. admin says:

    Thanks Jeremy! There are those that don’t think we should have taken the time for ourselves to rejuvenate & finally have down time to just spend time with the family and focus on our own emotional, spiritual and physical well being w/o interference of others’ emotional issues. If they can’t understand that this time was vital for own well being, and not only waaaaay long over due, AND definitely well deserved, well I guess they weren’t that good of friends to begin with. If sending emails with our thoughts and prayers weren’t enough, there’s nothing more I can do about that. So I really appreciate you understanding how important this time was for us!

    Yea Leah! Wot up wid Swati?? She makes this stalking thing look easy, doesn’t she?? lol I hope she is ok. I’ll ck FB & see if she has been there.

    I hope these feelings do last. I am working diligently on keeping them. Maybe I still haven’t accepted that they have really left. It felt so freeing to not worry about anything and just be in joy, love and laughter for 3 weeks. Add the amazing concert on top of it, and we have a recipe for lasting great feelings. I prefer these feelings, long may they last!

  4. Swati says:

    Ok, so I give on you for a few days because I thought you were busy and not blogging…and today I came here to see if you are back in action…and I see you have been blogging away crazily!! LOL!! I have so much to read.

  5. Karen T. says:

    Bask away Baby…it is much deserved! Those who think not can bite me.

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