I am a little fried after the past few days of writing. I have continued to add more stories to the other posts like the Wonder Years, for the proposal. Between having to relive all the trauma and organizing how we are going to pull this all together, Martin and I are both fried. Saturday we will work on pulling all of this together so we can send out the proposal on Monday, with any luck.
I think the 4th was hard on Wes. I think he really felt the loss of his best friend yesterday. Instead of setting off fire crackers all throughout the day like he and Andrew use to do, he stayed on WOW and waited until 9p.m. to set off any fire works. I’m actually surprised how much he has left over. We didn’t have the party, he didn’t want one so it was just the 3 of us. I just made hamburgers inside, no watermelon or apple pie or any 4th fan fair. Then later at 10:30p.m. Elatia joined us to set of a few more fire works. It was the biggest fireworks we’ve ever set off that’s for sure! One of them fell over and instead shooting into the air it was shooting off at things like my car, our tree, the neighbors! We ran in inside! Kinda scared the piss outta us! LOL

As Martin and I were standing there watching Wes, Martin asked me what did Andrew’s tree look like. He pointed out that it looked like a dragon’s head. I saw that but also saw how it looked like a unicorn’s head too! Wesley could see it as well. Andrew’s tree is truly very magickal!

I was cleaning today because a friend, Carole, was coming over to see about connecting with a close friend that recently passed. Martin said that when I came into the office, Andrew was behind me and waving. As soon as he told me that, I “heard” Andrew say, “I’m helping you clean Mommy!” Yea, well, it ain’t the same because I have to do ALL the work Muck!! It would explain why I put the silverware in the dishwasher separated, spoons together, forks together, knives together. I would always just chuck them in there willy nilly, where Andrew would always separate them. It was a pet peeve of his, he hated it if they weren’t separated.

It was a quiet day for the 4th, I think because we were all feeling our loss yesterday as this holiday was the last one that Andrew was feeling well. I would have preferred to have had a party for it but it was Wes and Andrew’s holiday and Wes didn’t want one so I honored that.


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4 Responses to AS YOU CAN IMAGINE…

  1. Dana says:

    Awww … Connie – Go with the flow and flow with the Go! You are still in your ‘year of firsts’ w/out Andrew. It’s good that you aren’t putting any undue pressure on yourself. We are planning a very quiet weekend as well. I took my 2 older kids to see ‘Hancock’ yesterday and we browsed in the mall for not quite an hour after that. My oldest son then went off camping with his best friend. The rest of us are just hanging out and we’ll do whatever we feel like doing. I’m enjoying sleeping in! :-D

    I can’t wait to begin the group OBE – sounds like fun!

    huge huggles!

  2. Leah Clark says:

    I echo Dana’s words – it’s still the first year!!! Glad you all got to be together on the 4th. And i can imagine that Andrew was probably in danger of blowing up the castle all day, that must be why Wes stayed on WOW – his Higher Self was in pyromania heaven with Andrew. ;)

  3. Leila says:

    Sending extra love and hugs to ((((Wes, you and Martin))))

  4. Swati says:

    Sending love to you, Martin and Wes….

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