All Of Me

As I have mentioned before, Andrew loves to communicate to me through songs. I will hear certain lines in songs louder than others and know it is Andrew talking to me. The latest song is “All of Me” by John Legend, the dance mix. While the entire song may not be appropriate to what Andrew is saying to me, certain lines are, and that is what I hear louder than the other words when I’m listening to a song on the radio. It’s interesting how that happens because it feels like a conversation with him. It IS a conversation with him, just in the new way. A convo I usually end up crying in mind you, but a conversation with my boy none the less. Here are the words that he wanted me to hear below.

This time of year is harder on me as we were in the hospital with him. It was our last 4 months with him. After he passed, people, including family were so hard on me and he wants to let me know that I am perfect with all my perfect imperfections. That ALL of him (which is so much bigger w/the Spirit that he is now,) loves All of me! And I know he wants me to give all of me to him, so he can help me to heal this grief, that he is still here loving me, helping me, but DAMMIT! Missing the physical part of him is still so devastating! He wants me to trust him, and just let go of that part of me that is holding on to that (physical) part of him.

‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
[Chorus:]
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning

‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard[Chorus:]
‘Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
‘Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of youI give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

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As I was questioning myself on my way to work if Andrew was truly speaking to me with this song, I get the urge to change the station to an oldies one & the song playing was John Lennon’s “Woman.” That is when I got that familiar feeling surround me even stronger that is Andrew’s energy letting me know that I am in deed on the right track with what I am feeling.This one brought tears to my eyes because when Andrew would tuck us in at night, yes, he started tucking us in bed as he got older, he would say to me, “Give it to me Woman!” and I would kiss him all over his face.

 

We would listen to this song on his myspace page when he became a fan of John Lennon while in hospital. I know he wanted me to hear the words to this song because he wants to thank me for everything I did for him while he was here. Here are the words to this song….

WOMAN

Woman I can hardly express,

My mixed emotion at my thoughtlessness, (yeah! For leaving me!)

After all I’m forever in your debt, (Ya think???)

And woman I will try express,

My inner feelings and thankfullness,