ShareWhile speaking at a conference last year in Boca about finding joy through grief, we met psychic Hally Elise. This year she asked us to be on her internet tv show. Here are the 2 episodes we were on. Episode 1: Episode 2: IT’S ALL GOOD! Share

ShareSigns come in so many ways as we have seen in my blog over the years. Well, here’s are a few more. The other week I was on my way home from an early morning work meeting when I see a familiar big smile in the distance. I thought that was an odd place to be seeing that big ole smile. I was coming up on a round-about that had bushes and plants in the center. In those plants I see a bobbing bright yellow, mylar, smilie face balloon, like the ones Wesley bought for Andrew’s first birthday not here. … Continue reading →

ShareWell, Andrew is at it again with the songs. I know when he sends me a song, because of the certain feeling I get. It’s hard to put into words. But I will get a certain feeling when I hear a song and I know it’s from him, and I know I am suppose to pay attention to the lyrics. It usually takes a few tries for him to get my attention. It’s when I think, “I really like this song, I wonder why?” Then I get that feeling that is my son’s energy and I start to pay attention. … Continue reading →

Share*sigh* I wonder why certain songs hit me, then I remember what time of the year it is. It is that time of year when we were in hospital with Andrew six years ago. We were in hospital a few weeks already. I don’t even want to read in my book about what was going on, on this day. I’m sure it correlates to how I am feeling at the mo. I don’t want to add insult to injury. Anyway, the song below reminds me of the night Andrew and I had our first slumber party in hospital. It must … Continue reading →

ShareQuite the combo huh? But that’s my life! ;-) Elatia and I took Kaliana out to lunch at Olive Garden last week. We won’t be doing that again for awhile! Ahhhhh the joys of having a toddler In your life! And I wouldn’t change it! I don’t mind if Kaliana wants to sit under the table when we go out to eat, whatever keeps her quiet. It’s the climbing on things, or wanting to crawl around on the floor like a frog saying “ribet ribet,” that is not cool, funny, but not cool. I was hoping she wasn’t going to … Continue reading →

ShareAndrew’s 22nd birthday on Mother’s Day set off another dance card round with grief. Nothing extraordinary happened for his birthday like last year with the spirit portrait. Then add other things not falling into place and feeling like I’ve been spinning my wheels getting nowhere, grief took the opportunity to fill my dance card and fill it good! I thought grief was going to win this time. Me and grief spent a few weeks doing the dance. Grief took me to a dark, lonely place that I thought was going to swallow me up. When you lose a child, grief … Continue reading →

ShareI have always known that Kaliana could see Andrew since she was a tiny baby. When I pointed to Andrew’s picture the other day, and asked her who that was, Kaliana said, “Andrew!” While I do talk about him to her, it’s not all the time. With toddlers having the attention span of a gnat, I didn’t expect her to say Andrew. That is how I know he spends time with her, she does recognize him in pictures. Now, the other day something really interesting happened. Kaliana was over and we keep all the doors to the bedrooms shut to … Continue reading →

ShareWell, I had an interesting thing happen last night while I was sleeping. I only remember it happening one other time, and that was before Andrew was diagnosed with leukemia. I am very please that I have been sleeping on my own without any melatonin for awhile now. I still don’t get 8 hrs straight of solid sleep, but it’s better than what I have been getting the past 5 years since Andrew left. I’ll take any win I can on this grief trail! So last night while sleeping, I am woken up by someone in my ear saying, “Mommy! … Continue reading →

ShareMan!!! I’m having a real hard time typing the word patience! I spit that word whenever I have to say it. But it looks like that is the word on the street with this new information from Andrew, p a t i e n c e. Needless to say being a red headed, Leo, Wise One who lost her son, patience is not one of my stronger suits. While it’s not my strong suit, being patient regarding this matter is a little easier because this isn’t about me. This one is ALL about Andrew/PureHeart. This is his gig. All I … Continue reading →